"Most would a agree that a kick in the ass is a good thing every now and then, but a boot to the head… maybe not so much."
A "wise man" once told me this not long ago shortly after I was literally kicked in the face playing soccer. We didn't have a sub so I remained in the game without being able to see out of my left eye.
My eye is slowly returning to proper color and shape, but even worse than the swelling, headache, and initial blurry vision of this injury has been my personal and work/school life these past few days.
I felt as if I would never finish anything I needed and felt as if I was completely wasting my time. I haven't felt like that in over a year and it really was getting me down... even having good conversations with close friends about things I cared about wasn't helping.
Yet, I am glad to say that somehow today after my last class I just felt better. I feel happier about what's going on, I'm stoked about birding on Saturday, my sister visiting, my project, the progress I've made on assignments, and just overall good.
I don't really know why but I'm not going to complain. I was way more productive than I thought I would be today, and maybe that's part of it. I'm having dinner with an old friend tonight after months of talking about it, and maybe that's part of it.
I don't know exactly what it is, but it works.
Just reminds me that life will get you down at times; sometimes you get kicked in the face. And instead of the good provoking response from an ass kick, you litterally ended up blinded as to where you are, what you're doing, and why you're doing it.
But that doesn't mean you leave the game. You toughen up and work through it. Slowly but surely your vision will return.
Or at least it will figuratively, hopefully litterally too... or you may want to see a doctor.
I have a huge passion for Baseball, Birds, and Botany (actually anything that begins with B). I recently graduated with my M.S. in Plant Biology. I currently teach freshman biology labs and also work for a non-profit in New Hampshire.
“Personally, I believe that there is a divine spark in us that binds us to the rest of creation, not merely as fellow creatures but as caretakers, with an earthly responsibility like the one we imagined for God. I’m not saying you can’t be a conservationist without this feeling — it’s just harder for me to understand what we owe the ivory-billed woodpecker without it.” - Jonathan Rosen
"Getting out into the field is not a means to the end, it itself is the end" - Jonathan Rosen
"In order to change the world we must first change our consciousness of it" - Jonathan Rosen